its always hard to forget certain things but im making the best improvements. guess i havent stopped believing in meeting the right one, but for now, i shall put love on hold and concentrate on the more important things in my life.

my waist keeps getting smaller, but my weight haven dropped down siaw. weird weird weird.. just had supper with zay and sara after work yesterday night, and when i came home to measure my waist, it was a crazy 26.8inch.. this morning it was 26.5.. hahaha.. i guess i have to be happy abt it, but it is just weird if my legs and hands are not porportional with my waist. and my face! fat face!! kenneth calls me big face D, hill calls me chubby.

i haven stopped eating, ask anyone, especially jet.. he says going out with me once can gain weight like mad.. and its true.. hahhaa

uploading post with pics later tonight, as for now.. i gotta go to the damn polyclinic(more abt it later) and bank.. then meeting kenneth before work.. nt working tml woohoo~~

everything in my life is broken now.. my fan, my aircond(both fixed btw, cost me unneccessary money-_-), my hairdryer and now, my stupid phone!

i want an omnia!!

im so so tired.. with generally everything.. and yet, i have to move on, i HAVE to, i dont have a choice..

p/s i'm making an oath to study really hard from now on.. so.. look out ppl!

la

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了.. 明明从前连争执都很甜美 现在怎会说句话就冷冻一边..

男人 男人 多希望你是好人.. 多么希望你是对的人..

drowning myself with school and work everyday so that i can stop thinking abt things.. plus get extra money =D
have yet to find a roommate so that sucks, bt i have a whole month to do so.. lets hope luck will finally be on my side..

i have no social life anymore.. clubbing.. hanging out, i try to take out the time to do so.. this weekend i was initially planning to go sing k with jet, but on saturday he was tired, today i was tired..so the plan failed haihs..

went to sing k with my colleagues yesterday night (or this morning) after work until 6am.. 3 to 6 onli leh.. din sing enuff.. my stomach was so so painful and i wanted to go to the ladies after that.. but there wasnt one available and i din wan to go to swensons' toilet cos i heard its haunted. took us a while to get a cab cos its sunday and cab drivers dun usually get up this early on weekends.. finally called a cab and the cab driver was kind enuff to send me and beth both back.. from orchard to bishan then jurong kechil.. when i reached home i literally ran to the toilet without taking off my shoes.. hahaha.. the relief of finally sitting on the toilet bowl.. oohlala~ ok will spare u the details. =P

working again tonight.. mum and dad dun worry hor i have afternoon cls so i wont be that tired..

gosh, ive been scolded by my manager n assistant manager for three nights in a row now.. sometimes for things i din even know i did wrong.. bt sometimes its cos i cnt concentrate on what im doing.. well saying i dont think abt him is obviously lying.. working really beats sitting at home or hanging out arnd town doing nth because it helps me pass by time without me actually knowing it.. so it will eventually get better.. and i WILL eventually forget him..eventually.

i have holidays AGAIN starting next week. its called study break, which is 3 to 4 weeks long. this time, i choose not to go back to kuching. guess i'll be working more yay.

all the disappointments, sadness have been lifted and gone from my mind, i finally got to sleep peacefully without thinking so much.. we ended it, nt our relationship because we were never in one to begin with, but our imaginative one.. im so much relieved now although i have lost someone that means so much to me.. i guess love isnt everything, love cant overcome the expectations that go along with it, love cant combine two people that are so wrong for each other even if they tried to, love cant change anyone's personality.. although its going to be lonely for me, at least i wont have to experience the hurt he put me through anymore.. i guess being just friends are all we can be.. i wish him all the best in Kuching, that's where his heart is no matter what..