im back in singapore, and staying at home on a friday night. too lazy to go anywhere recently. everyday i wake up at 7.30am, work at 9am till 8pm, then come home and online. been rather emo the first few days i was back, thats why i din reply most of your msn messages.

when harry sent me to the airport on monday, i did not cry in front of him. because i know i'll go back to kch soon, just a few months time. but, i shed a few tears when the plane was moving.. signifying the end of my maybe boring yet damn relaxing trip back home.

when bryan came to pick me from the airport, i knew then i have to face this truth, that FUCK IM BACK IN THIS STRESSHOLE(as jake claims). why stress? cos in singapore, i have to decide on everything myself. plus, i came back to a whole lot of unfinished business. mainly, the unsolved issue regarding mainly my roommate, housemates and agent. even when i was in kuching, this was the only sucker that stressed the hell out of me.

the thing is, everything seems so uncertain when im here. relationship wise, money wise, and friendship wise. dont get me wrong, i love being in singapore, but why was it that i felt so hard to breath everytime i came home from work. coming back to this empty room, having no one here to accompany me makes it even harder. since i came back on monday, i din find anyone of my friends here out, anti-social maybe. or just tired. tired to put out the energy to talk, to have a social life. i miss those sukus in kch.. even tho this time i din get to meet a lot of people because they're not in kuching, but i enjoyed the company of those who were.

harry, eva, yencin, eddie, diana, gl, sy, etc etc. i miss u guys terribly..

i just had to put this pic of sy. greedy greedy. haha pay rm30 to eat a small pack of chips tsk tsk



this is just a temporary feeling of depression, it'll pass.

i'm feeling rather joyful tonight. mainly because i've confirmed my flight back to kuching. before you get too happy, its for january next year. HAHA

another thing is, i've also booked the flight to taiwan this december. yes im gonna be tracy's lightbulb. and i'll shine really bright if she and her bf dont introduce nice people to me. this is a threat, tracy. =DD

initially i wanted to go to thailand, to enjoy the beach, hot dudes and nightspots. not forgetting to mention the FOOD there. but i know the plan will fall out because i tend to have a lot of ppl who likes to talk bt never take action arnd me. so the safest thing to do is to go with someone who will do it. TRACY (because she went to thailand a lot of times edi so she wants to go to her bf's hometown this time XD). AND she also promised me our next trip would be to thailand. thailand, wait for me..

another thing to look forward to is that both claudia and eva are coming to singapore this month!! gonna enjoy the short time with my babes.

see, im being optimistic suddenly. i have a mission, which is hard to accomplish, but i HAVE to.

dad i love you, thanks for allowing me go!!
even if u dont allow i will still love you, but lesser maybe. jk, or not?

p/s - clubbing in kuching sucks. not only do they close at 2am, we got sapu(police come and test our urine LOL) one fateful saturday night at the Core.

HAHA what an experience. eva and i thought it was hilarious and even took afew pics while waiting for our names to be called, but harry and eddie's faces were like -_-
yencin and sy u two heng nia din go that night. hahahaha if not yc's face will be like =.=(eyes too big must have double line)

i gained weight, so sue me =P